I’m fucking sick and tired of being overweight.
all these excuses..
Love yourself no matter what size you are.
Don’t fall for the media, no one really looks like that.
Be happy within and you’ll be beautiful no matter how you look.
No one will become happier just because they lose the weight.
…Well.. Fuck you. I do love myself, I think I’m fucking awesome, no word of a lie.
But I fucking hate the way I look and the way I feel in my body. I sometimes feel like a skinny girl trapped inside a fat girls body. Because in my mind, I’m skinny, I’m fierce and unstoppable. Then I look in the mirror… Oh.. right. I’m THAT girl. 170cm and 90kg girl.
I’ve tried and failed so many times, like many others, to lose weight before. I’ve gone down to my ideal weight twice in about 6 years, then gone up again. So I know I can do it, I’ve done it before. But the stupidity that made me gain the weight again kills me.
I’ve had enough, I’m 26 years old and have my whole life ahead of me. I need to change my ways and I will. This time for good. Been saying that before, but as for this time, my life situation is different then before. I have a different job, different friends and new hobbies. So this time it WILL be different, it will work because I wont accept anything else.
I’ve done a 90 days plan, starting on the 1st of September. That gives me a few days to mentally prepare myself and my surroundings. Declutter my life of distractions and make my routine as bullet proof as possible.