Right, it is becoming a problem now.
These past 3 days i have:
– Looked for a car to buy
– Found a car and went to test drive it
– Bought the car
– Had the car brought to my home
– Sorted out the tax
– Looked up different insurance companies
– Decided on a company and bought a insurance
I’m over the moon happy with it! The fact that I have my freedom back and can drive is awesome, don’t get me wrong. But somewhere in the back of my head I feel like.. “I’m I just pushing the really important thing aside again? ”
Not been to the gym at all this week and I had ice-cream last night (my time of the month) and it is slightly starting to piss me off, I’m not going to lie.
I was so fired up when I started but still I’m falling down the same fucking hole as always.
Time to re-group, find a different way. Clearly this isn’t working, I want something for the long run, the rest of my life kind of change.
Letting this weekend go, I’m working stupid hours so.. Update on Monday with a plan!
I tend to start up too many things at once and then it all just goes to mash and nothing turns out the way I wanted it to.
I started a 90 day challenge – to loose weight and get stronger.
I started a weekly planner and a vision board – to organize my life and set up my goals.
I started to declutter my whole house – to live a more simple life and have less stuff.
I started to rearrange all the rooms after they were decluttered – to organize.
I tried to stop smoking – lasted 2 days.
I started this blog – to write in every day.
As well as working full time and spending time with my boyfriend.
All this in the past few weeks. I really need to concentrate on one thing at the time, get it done then move on to the next. Because now, I have sorted my whole house, done a vision board and donated all my things I wanted to get rid off. But I havn’t been at the gym for a week, slipped off my diet twice and been out drinking. So the thing that was the most important to me, I let go off…
I need to change my mind set, realize that this is how I work and not let it continue.
I’m not giving up, I got this!
I hit rock bottom last night. Went out drinking, had a Subway later while drunk. That means bread, and not gluten free bread either. I’m surprised my stomach isn’t complaining more then it is. But back on the right track today, as I said before, it’s been a bad week but I got trough it and now it’s back to routines again!
Today I’m going to make my weekly planning for next week.
I’m going to put in another color remover in my hair, trying to get back my more normal hair color. Wasn’t a big fan of the black strangely enough, had it many times before.
Step up and take control of your own life!!
This week has been rough, mentally mostly…
A lot of work, early mornings and late nights. Lack of sleep, no gym time and so on..
BUT I feel okay. I feel happy and I’m really okay!
Today I have finished decluttering and organizing my room. It’s all done and feels so good!
Started on the bathroom as well, will finish it another day, now im going to make some dinner and just relax for the rest of the night.
Yesterday was I day on I wont linger on. It wasn’t a good day and we’ll leave it at that.
Working split shifts today, just done breakfast and I’m back again tonight at 6 for work.
My plan this afternoon is to continue going trough my things and I will continue until I feel that I have got rid off all the things I don’t need or want in my life.
I want to live simple with less stuff and less clutter. Already I can tell how much better I feel here in my room knowing that my drawers aren’t filled with things.
As for many other right now I have just read: The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up: The Japanese Art of Decluttering and Organizing
A book I think everyone would find helpful to read. I have never been a messy person or liked having a lot of things out laying about. It stresses me out, I know this. This book has taught me that even tho it’s clean and tidy around me, the things in drawers or cabinets is still affecting me. Out of sight, out of mind isn’t really true. It is still on your mind, somewhere, and it adds up pretty quickly.